Dating is supposed to be fun, easy, and exciting. It’s supposed to be exhilarating, you should be able to relax and have fun. But dating, is definitely NOT easy! It’s hard and difficult. It’s sweating, nervousness, stomach aches, it’s wondering if he will kiss you or not at the end of the date, it’s wondering if he will be a gentleman, will he pay, will he be a jerk, or will he not be who he said he was.
Dating stinks, and so many bad first date stories are out there, talking amongst friends over a beer or cocktail. It’s girls sticking together through everything, it’s getting back out there and not hiding under your blankets and eating ice cream while watching a romcom! Dating is about taking chances and seeing if you find someone who you can ‘mesh’ well together.
Funny thing about me is that while dating, I don’t call the guy by his real name. I give them all nicknames (well at least my friends only know them by nicknames). They don’t get a real name until I know they won’t hurt me, or if they are going to stick around, or they are not d*bags.
I feel like I’ve been dating for a decade! But in reality it’s only been about 5-6 years. Within those years, I’ve had so many first dates, I’ve met so many guys for coffee or a drink (not considered a date), I’ve been on so many dating sites it’s absolutely insane in what I’ve been through and seen/heard from guys.
So, after dating for 5-6 years and finally meeting someone who you think is going to last longer than a couple of dates, and have him turn your world upside down, you fall for him, you find out things that you don’t want to believe, everyone is telling you what to do, but no one is asking what I want to do. When your heart is braking and you can’t talk to him or see him, it just makes it worse.
You need to move on, you need to figure out your life, move forward and pray one day, you will find someone who cares and loves you the way you should be loved. see you for the person from the inside out and see the beautiful person you are. I thought that was him, I thought so many things. But I guess it’s time to move on. Who knows if it’s the right decision, who knows if we are meant to be, if one day we will cross paths and have a fresh start. But all I know is that dating is hard, and finding the one who will be your forever is harder. But you just have to move on and move forward.
Just don’t give up!